24/4/11

There goes my blogging resolution huh? Ah well. Life is ridiculously busy right now anyway, I don't have time to blog!
Except now, I am in a 'secret' room (basically one first years don't know about) in the MacRobert building at Uni trying and failing to hit the half way mark of my dissertation. I would be doing fine, except I forgot to bring in the work I did at home yesterday and Friday and so now am trying to work on 'Rebecca' instead so I don't lose time, and let's just say it's not my favourite book of all time. My topic is how romance fiction is antifeminist which honestly is very interesting but it isn't half making me bitter and cynical, especially since I'm going through a break up from a complete douchebag (long story).
But yeah, on the 6th of May it'll be finished, bound, and handed in. And this will all feel like a dream. And I will be so very VERY drunk.
After that I have one submission for Creative Writing and that'll be all my coursework finished. I have no exams for this term so that will be me finished Uni forever. It's such an odd feeling. My friend Jenn was telling me she was looking through photos of us in 1st year and we look so different. So young and naive. It seems strange to say that I know, it was only 3 years ago, but when I sat down and thought about everything that has happened since I got very overwhelmed and proud of both me and my friends who have been there since the beginning. It's so sad that the end has come, even though we've been wishing for it for ages. I just think it's the goodbyes I don't want to deal with. My friend Jenn and I see each other pretty much everyday, we feel odd if we don't speak one day, and we send each other 'night night' BBMS. It may seem strange but it's just us. She's moving home to Newcastle at the end of May and as much as I know we will always be friends it's really bumming me out that we will no longer be living in the same city. My flatmate Reah, too, is moving to Malta with her parents this summer. She says she's just going for a holiday to see how she likes it but I honestly don't think she'll come back. As much as I'm sure I get on her nerves I love living with her. Our disturbing and odd conversations are the best way to end the days. It's going to be very strange. Alex has gotten a permanent job as a graphic designer in Nottingham too, which I am SO proud of her for, but she leaves next week, and I don't really want her to go.
I know, I know. Life moves on. We all go our own separate ways at some point. But whilst I'm the oldest out of my closest friends (bar Claire) I can't help but feel the least ready to deal with these changes. But that's getting too deep and personal.
I'm having trouble finding a job for after uni. My current plan is to stay in Aberdeen with a 6 month lease with my friend Kenny (YAY!!!) after my current one ends in July and do a TEFL course. I've heard a lot about CELTA being better but as I am not completely sure if I want to do this as a career yet I'm not going to part with £1000 for it. Then hopefully I'll be able to find some sort of job abroad, just for a few months, and then Jenn and I are going to trek around India for a month. And then it's one of my best friend's weddings in July 2012 which I am SO excited for. But after that? Who knows. It sounds silly and very adolescent but I know who I want to be with, and be with after all this is finished, I'm just waiting for him to sort his head out and figure out if he wants the same. But that's another story too.

ANYWAY
Exciting things coming up:
I turn 22 on Wednesday and my lovely friends and I are going for a picnic in the park and playing rounders, then going for a few drinks. SO EXCITED! I may be turning 22 but I may as well be turning 12 again. Even my friend Layla is coming which I'm really excited about.

6th of May = dissertation hand in + shots.

11th-13th June = ROCKNESS!!!!! Reah has a tent her room but I still don't think she's bought her ticket yet. Not gonna lie, little bit antsy.

13th- 20th June = Grandaddy visit :) I hardly ever see him so it'll be lovely. My dad's taking us all down to Edinburgh for a few days too.

5th of July = GRADUATION DAY!!!!!!

6th of July = Graduation ball!!!! Must remember to go to the gym.

After all that, who knows. After all my deadlines I am going to start doing some freelance writing, cause through all this confusion I know that is definitely something I want to do.

As rambly as the post has been, it's all good in the hood :)

I last blogged over a year ago and by god how things have changed in that time! But at the same time they haven't in some respects.
I am not the same girl I was when I wrote those entries though, that is for sure. I'm not going to be so bold to say I'm a better person, but definitely a lot more mature. With all the things that I have been through in these past 16 months I have had no choice but to grow up and move on. I was even considering deleting all those posts and starting afresh, but I want them there to serve as a reminder, a reminder of how far someone can come if they just man up and deal with their shit.
That's enough rambling for now.

In 3 days it is 2011. My mum and sister moved to Yorkshire in March and so I am down there right now. I was meant to be staying 'til the 7th but due to the desperate need to revise and other circumstances which I will not divulge I am leaving on Friday now and having what is sure to be an interesting Hogmanay with my roomie and a group of her friends.
I am so excited for 2011, but so scared at the same time. With the moving of my family I am pretty much independent in Aberdeen, and as of July I will no longer be getting support from my father. Enter real world Kat. I am not ready for it but I have no choice but to be. It's different for me though, I refuse to move here after graduation, and also refuse to move in with my dad. So it really is graduate-> get a job-> get a flat (hopefully with Reah again)-> real world.
It is strange to think that in 6 months time that will all be sorted, when here I am right now shitting myself about it and kidding myself into thinking that it won't happen for a long time.
That probably made no sense.
It's time for 2011. A new start. A lot is changing, both out of free will and of their own accord. Wish me luck!
I'm going to keep this blog up, I miss blogging :)

Sorry if that made no sense! Adios :)