Ever wonder if you've made the biggest mistake of your life?
Ever wonder why one little change can conflict your heart in so many ways?
Ever wonder why nothing is what it seems?
Ever wonder why life is so hard?
Ever wonder if there's a point?
Ever wish you could turn back the clock and change it all?
Ever wonder why one little fight means you lose someone you love?
I miss you.
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
Jim Fixed It For Me
Absolutely beautiful weekend. But now a huge decision needs to be made. But I'm definitely swaying towards saying yes.
Dear Jim;
Can you fix it for me to find an incredible guy who loves me just as I am, flaws in all, and wants to be with me for a very long time?
Yours, Kat, aged 20 years old.
I am now the proud owner of this bag thanks to the boy Jim found for me.
Also I love and hate my job. I love it because it's sooo cool, a lot of fun, I meet lots of people, and I really enjoy it.
I hate it because it proves I have no willpower.
How cute is the penguin necklace?
I am also the proud owner of this. My boss better watch out if I win the lotto. The whole stall will be sold in a day.
Final point, a photo of this will be uploaded soon, but Tom and mine's minds created this alone. An elephant and penguin mate (my two favourite animals btw) and they make an Eleguin! Too cute for words. I'll put up a photo of our drawing once I get a new camera...
Adios.
Dear Jim;
Can you fix it for me to find an incredible guy who loves me just as I am, flaws in all, and wants to be with me for a very long time?
Yours, Kat, aged 20 years old.
I am now the proud owner of this bag thanks to the boy Jim found for me.
Also I love and hate my job. I love it because it's sooo cool, a lot of fun, I meet lots of people, and I really enjoy it.
I hate it because it proves I have no willpower.
How cute is the penguin necklace?
I am also the proud owner of this. My boss better watch out if I win the lotto. The whole stall will be sold in a day.
Final point, a photo of this will be uploaded soon, but Tom and mine's minds created this alone. An elephant and penguin mate (my two favourite animals btw) and they make an Eleguin! Too cute for words. I'll put up a photo of our drawing once I get a new camera...
Adios.
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
Sorry to blog twice in one day
World Challenge and my book.
That's all I've been thinking about all day.
Making people proud is all I want to do right now.
I went through so much during World Challenge, and I can only imagine what my leaders went through watching me deal with it. I want to experience that feeling of excitement, and accomplishment.
So World Challenge leader is what I've been aiming for for a long time, and now it's for real.
I also want you to read a poem that I am very proud of. The title is "Four Years" but like the poem that needs some work. Constructive criticism is always accepted.
Fly away on the wings of a dove,
Never again do I want to love.
So I wrote at the age of sixteen,
All the things you did and said
All they did was demean.
Four years have passed since that day
And even if I think I'm fixed,
I still have no words to say.
Six attempts down the line,
The last one eleven days past.
Take it as fate,
Claim everything's fine.
Love will tear us apart,
Or so we have been told.
So why this pressure?
To find the one before we grow old.
"I'll be there forever" you said,
False words and promises,
I lay in my room dead.
You promised you'd do it too,
That if we left together,
Then all our pain would be through.
But you never did,
A plight to kill me?
You've failed Mr. Burbidge.
This is my final goodbye,
If I don't make it through the night,
You'll know why.
But then again,
I've proved myself a fighter.
My hate for you is far too strong,
But those four years have made me a little lighter.
My thoughts are confused,
For once again I have loved and lost.
But after the initial pain,
No one else will suffer at my cost.
Think of this what you will,
A new beginning
A symbol of strength,
I am something you will not kill.
What do you think?
One Tree Hill is exciting me about new relationships and first dates. I hate to sound cheesy but I am finally ready to properly move on.
That's all I've been thinking about all day.
Making people proud is all I want to do right now.
I went through so much during World Challenge, and I can only imagine what my leaders went through watching me deal with it. I want to experience that feeling of excitement, and accomplishment.
So World Challenge leader is what I've been aiming for for a long time, and now it's for real.
I also want you to read a poem that I am very proud of. The title is "Four Years" but like the poem that needs some work. Constructive criticism is always accepted.
Fly away on the wings of a dove,
Never again do I want to love.
So I wrote at the age of sixteen,
All the things you did and said
All they did was demean.
Four years have passed since that day
And even if I think I'm fixed,
I still have no words to say.
Six attempts down the line,
The last one eleven days past.
Take it as fate,
Claim everything's fine.
Love will tear us apart,
Or so we have been told.
So why this pressure?
To find the one before we grow old.
"I'll be there forever" you said,
False words and promises,
I lay in my room dead.
You promised you'd do it too,
That if we left together,
Then all our pain would be through.
But you never did,
A plight to kill me?
You've failed Mr. Burbidge.
This is my final goodbye,
If I don't make it through the night,
You'll know why.
But then again,
I've proved myself a fighter.
My hate for you is far too strong,
But those four years have made me a little lighter.
My thoughts are confused,
For once again I have loved and lost.
But after the initial pain,
No one else will suffer at my cost.
Think of this what you will,
A new beginning
A symbol of strength,
I am something you will not kill.
What do you think?
One Tree Hill is exciting me about new relationships and first dates. I hate to sound cheesy but I am finally ready to properly move on.
One Tree Hill
I'm on my fifth episode of the day (I don't actually have a life, just to let you know) and have discovered that I want Lucas Scott's life. Not the whole falling in love with a not very pretty girl thing. But writing a story about my life, a great epic story. And it being so loved that the world is turned upside down by it.
If I can't have that, can I have Chad Michael Murray instead please?
Thank you :)
If I can't have that, can I have Chad Michael Murray instead please?
Thank you :)
Monday, 13 July 2009
The Love of my Life
Her name is Edna, and she is a beauty.
Unfortunately she doesn't belong to me, she's all my best friend's.
But I swear, this gorgeous lady never fails to cheer me up, no matter what is going on, just like her incredible owner :).
I thought I should dedicate something to her though. Who needs men when beautiful cars like Edna exist in the world?
"Just being inside her makes me happy"
Saturday, 11 July 2009
"You are stronger than this..."
I have had THE worst day of my life, ever. I swear. When it gets to almost 9pm and you're crying at a bus stop in Aberdeen you know it's time to go home and eat a whole bar of Galaxy.
All I have to say is (I am very creeped out right now and don't want to divulge too much online) there are a LOT of sick sick people out there. And plastering your life all over the internet probably leaves you open to such things. So hello private profiles and the deletion of certain social networking sites.
Whoever did this to me is going to pay.
Sad face :(
All I have to say is (I am very creeped out right now and don't want to divulge too much online) there are a LOT of sick sick people out there. And plastering your life all over the internet probably leaves you open to such things. So hello private profiles and the deletion of certain social networking sites.
Whoever did this to me is going to pay.
Sad face :(
Thursday, 9 July 2009
My Life Would Suck Without You
Everyone has the friends, the ones they claim are better than anyone elses. "My friends are the best so don't even try and compare to them"
Well guess what? I actually HAVE those friends who are better than all others.
Everyone always talks about the love between two people, who are so perfect for each other it makes you feel sick. They fall in love; have the rough spell; and then find each other once more, usually in the most romantic and unbelievable ways. I myself dreamt of going to meet someone off of a train, whilst wearing a beautiful princessy dress ala Carrie in Sex and the City, and forcing him to see what he had given up, to see that he truly did love me. Of course it was my best friends who managed to convince me that my life ISN'T a movie, and that going out and getting drunk would be a much better expenditure of my time.
However, why is it no one talks about other love? The true love that can be found within our closest friends. The love that I feel for "the family" (or at least that is what we used to call ourselves) doesn't exactly rival the butterflies that romantic love can give you, but it is definitely much less filled with drama and tears.
So yes, I have met someone, and fallen for him already. It's all a bit complicated right now but hopefully my relationship status will be changing soon. However, if it doesn't work out the way I want it to (and I don't have the best track record with men) then it's OK. Because I have finally realised that as much as I would like someone to cuddle, all I truly need right now, and arguably ever, is those friends who have given me the best memories I could ever ask for, and never fail to put a smile on my face.
You can never call me unloved, because as long as you give some love out, you're always going to get some back.
"Have you ever been in love?"
"Abso-fucking-lutely"
Well guess what? I actually HAVE those friends who are better than all others.
Everyone always talks about the love between two people, who are so perfect for each other it makes you feel sick. They fall in love; have the rough spell; and then find each other once more, usually in the most romantic and unbelievable ways. I myself dreamt of going to meet someone off of a train, whilst wearing a beautiful princessy dress ala Carrie in Sex and the City, and forcing him to see what he had given up, to see that he truly did love me. Of course it was my best friends who managed to convince me that my life ISN'T a movie, and that going out and getting drunk would be a much better expenditure of my time.
However, why is it no one talks about other love? The true love that can be found within our closest friends. The love that I feel for "the family" (or at least that is what we used to call ourselves) doesn't exactly rival the butterflies that romantic love can give you, but it is definitely much less filled with drama and tears.
So yes, I have met someone, and fallen for him already. It's all a bit complicated right now but hopefully my relationship status will be changing soon. However, if it doesn't work out the way I want it to (and I don't have the best track record with men) then it's OK. Because I have finally realised that as much as I would like someone to cuddle, all I truly need right now, and arguably ever, is those friends who have given me the best memories I could ever ask for, and never fail to put a smile on my face.
You can never call me unloved, because as long as you give some love out, you're always going to get some back.
"Have you ever been in love?"
"Abso-fucking-lutely"
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